One of the things I am most convinced of today is that one of the main reasons Jesus came was to change our minds about God and not God's mind about us.
This was once again reaffirmed in me the other day while conversing with someone. Over and over I heard this individual tell me that it was not about what he wanted in his life but more about what God wanted. As I listened I began to wonder why it was that a statement like this that while on face value sounded so good still somehow felt so hollow.
As I left the meeting I pondered about this while thinking about Jesus and the way he always addressed people that he encountered along his way. I wondered if God was not interested in what we wanted then why did Jesus each time asked people the same question, "What do you want?" Why didn't he instead ask about their needs or perhaps if they wanted him to reveal God's want for them so he could make it happen?
So why do we struggle so much when it comes to our wants and being OK with them? I believe this begins within our minds where we believe that a walk with God is not acceptable to him unless it is about doing what we don't like or even love. It is as if we have somehow been successfully convinced that God is only interested in fulfilling his purposes and getting the job done. Merely seeing us as useful robots that have no feelings, desires, needs, or even wants.
I know this lie only too well as in my own live I too once believed that it was not about what I wanted that mattered. I even aligned my prayers along this false belief yet the more I prayed this way the less answers I got. As I look back I can see that every time I pretended that what I wanted was not as important as what he wanted he never really answered. Yet as I began to be honest with what I wanted answers began to show up. Suddenly there was motion. At first if I am honest I declined to follow the leads as they didnt look the way I envisioned them to be according to what I wanted. I figured if this was from God then it would look different. This happened many times until one day I decided to follow the leading I was getting.
Here are a few things I discovered along the way.
First when we are honest with this question we open this part of our heart to God. Even if the want at the time is unhealthy or the fulfillment of it won’t have the cause we hope for in our lives, God still wants us to tell him about it. Second, our honesty, unlike our false pretense, triggers a journey in motion where we begin to be led towards the fulfillment of the desire. Third, there is a very big difference between our wants and our deepest desires and this I believe is what God is most interested in showing us.
This was confirmed to me when God showed me that when we are honest with what we want he immediately creates a path where we are given an opportunity to understand and reinterpret our desires and wants. He does this by first opening doors into situations which are responsible for bringing healing and freedom into our lives. From this new space of wholeness we are enabled to then reassess with greater clarity our wants and reasons for wanting what we want. From here our wants normally begin to change as they align themselves with the changes that we are experiencing within. Inevitably our prayers are also affected as they too begin to mirror the real desire that has all along been hiding behind what we thought we wanted.
Furthermore, I believe this is also why when we are told to ask it says we will receive, not what we will receive. When it says to knock it says that the door will be opened, not what door will be opened. When we are told to seek it says that we will find, not what we will find. In other words we are the ones that are meant to ask, knock, seek, and want and God is the one that decides which is the best way to fulfill it all - including us.
Today I am more than convinced that God is very interested in what we want and desire even if we erroneously think he is not. Furthermore, I also believe that most of our distorted self-denial sentiments, have a lot more in common with the unseen shame in us than the humility that is birthed in someone that knows that they are unconditionally loved by God.
Remember - If God had a problem with our wants then Jesus would have never asked about them.
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